As humans it is in our nature to question everything. I am as guilty of it as anyone. In my small limited brain I have this need to know why things are happening at this moment. Here is a little secret. God knows and he hears these kinds of questions every nano second every day and frankly decides if he answers the question or not? The hard fact is the world works on his time and not ours. As big and physically strong I am there are certain things I can’t control and God’s timetable doesn’t work the same as mine. That lesson I learned over 11 years ago as I stood by my dying fathers beside and he said to me ” I’m dying son”. At that moment it hit that God is in control of this show and not me. As I help guide my wife to her final resting place I ask that question of God often. Hey God Why Now?
As life’s events can cause many changes in your life often your spiritual life can take a pounding. Over 4 years ago I had one of those events. It blew up my world like nothing else had ever done. Over time and circumstances my church attendance pretty much stopped and I would make excuses about not going. There were those that most would consider legitimate reasons. Then there are those that simply were Satan using every tactic to keep me away. I would drive by my church on a regular basis and never stopped. Then something happened about 2 weeks ago.
I did finally did stop by and as I stood in the sanctuary all alone so many memories came rushing through which frankly surprised me. I sensed God was saying ” it’s time to come home”. It is time and I have returned back home. The thing I can ponder all I want about why this happened but in the end it doesn’t really matter. The important thing is I am back home and it feels right.
In scripture the mention of someone having or needing to have a gentle spirit is very common. Of course like many things is scripture people have this habit of twisting things around. Having a gentle spirit does not mean that you are weak minded by any means. In many cases it is just the opposite. Some of those folks can by their mere presence and words can make you feel about 2 inches tall! As the saying goes ” don’t take my kindness as a sign of weakness”. Can a gentle spirit be taught or is it something that is in someone’s soul? I honestly don’t know. I do know that when you come across these people make your life better!
As human beings we have this nasty habit of wanting things done on our time table. Of course that goes back to the beginning of time and never works! You see we see our lives in the here and now while God is a big picture thinker of our lives. He has a plan and frankly he does hold all of the cards! What cards do we truly have? None! I know for me my issue comes from wanting to help others yesterday. It’s a constant internal fight. So what is your biggest struggle?