Being a caregiver your needs get pushed aside and over time your passions fade away. My one true passion is life has always been writing but frankly it got suppressed for a variety of reasons. As I said to my wife the other day ” I need something in all of this for me”. It has to be more than just writing a blog which I have done for a very long time. The thing is I am very good at this caregiver thing but I need something more. In ways I feel selfish about it but this also leads to a much bigger question and that is what am I going to do when something happens to her? As often is said in life ” the first step is always the toughest”. I really don’t know what the first step should be in this new journey? I know that I am looking for an answer.